What did I do?

I am in a dream, screaming.
I have lost me family, friends, and myself.
I have pushed away my family, killed off all me
Friendship, and thrown away the person I once knew.
The happy, cheerful, and loved person.
Now I am sad, miserable, and hated.
I claw at my chest, trying to get to my heart, to get rid
Of the pain.
I bleed nonstop.
I don’t feel any pain, except for the pain in my heart.
I feel as though I am in blackness, wondering what
Went wrong.
I think and remember.
I tried to be a friend and sister but I betrayed everyone.
I feel as though I am going crazy.
I wonder when the will come to get me.

I wake up but the dream is real.
I see the dried blood on my fingers and chest.
I see the cuts over my heart.
I hear the siren in the background.
They are coming for me at last.
I wonder what did I do.